A Mothers guilt sucks! I am not talking about the guilt that mother hammer down on their elder children to get them to do things (Mom!). I mean the guilt you feel when your kids cry for you when you leave them, the guilt you feel when your kids get hurt the one second you aren't paying attention, The damn guilt you feel when your kids are out of control and push you to the edge and you explode at them. That is the guilt that sucks!
I started a Couch to 5K program where I have to walk/run 3 days a week. Not a tall order right! So The Princess goes to school 3 days a week...Great time to work out. So I drop Mason off with Papa, bring Kylie to school and go do my workouts. It all works out great. But one thing....
Mason cries every time I bring him to Papa's house. Don't get me wrong he loves it there. Him and Papa have a blast together. He cries so I feel bad for leaving him! And it works. The time Kylie is in school is not only a good time to work out, it would also be a great time to spend some one on one time with my little Monkey. And there is the guilt.
I love My little man so much! And I am always feeling bad that he and I rarely get alone time with out The Princess. I had 3 years with Kylie, I don't want to short change Mason.
I understand a happy Mom makes happy kids. And It is healthier for all of us for me to take time for myself. But hot damn that Mothers guilt SUCKS!!!